I should know this more than anyone else, because in no other sense am I facing any other fear than the fear within my own mind. Having to prepare for an upcoming ordeal is painful. You haven’t faced the pain yet, and you are preparing for it, trying your best to find all means and ways to cushion the pain and suffering that is about to come. But as you try to do so, the excruciating trepidation comes hard to avoid. The fear of failure, injury, conflict and other negative connotations come to cloud and destroy your cognitive abilities. I would rather have the thing come charging straight at me and i’ll take it on full whack rather than the long drawn agony happening to me now.
I pray, that everything would be alright. That God would help us all to get through it in one piece. It’s going to be lonely and miserable. But lets see what this makes us in the end…
